Strawberry Cinnamon

Steffie — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 21:47:35 +0000

Live changes…

On everyday basis we come to face things that we rather not face. We’d rather hide in a corner and cover ourselfs rather than having to fight off our demons. Especially in public. But with the rapid changes in our lifes, we have no other chance then to face our fears. Because wether we like it or not, they are here to stay. The longer we wait, the bigger it’ll get.

So let’s just deal with it. Jump into it while blindfolded and just go for it! What do you have to lose?

Steffie — Fri, 11 Jun 2010 23:13:51 +0000

Being a Christian does not make me;

Stupid
Closed-Minded
Anti-gay
Anti-Everythingthatisfun
Overwhelmed with a sense of self importance
Perfect

It does, however, give me something to live for, and a hope that never would have been there otherwise

We Need To Shine Bright

Steffie — Mon, 07 Jun 2010 21:36:30 +0000

It’s like you got to walk like him
Got to talk like her
Got to be like them
Everybody knows you follow the crowd
Or get singled out
But God says who you are
Not the world or movie stars
Don’t you know He holds the answers in His hands?

We’re stuck in a system
Is there anybody different?
Is anybody listening?
Is anybody listening?

Everyone has their own sound
Let it out now, let it out now
There’s nothing wrong with living loud
Let it out now, let it out now

I’m drawing the line between
Being them or being me
I’m not ashamed
To call myself one of Yours, Lord
But it’s a narrow path
I’ve got to break from the pack
No turning back
No turning back

Yes, God’s looking for a people
With a passion in their hearts
We’re God’s children
We need to shine bright
We need to shine bright

Everyone has their own sound
Don’t you know all God’s children have their sound?
Lyrics by Leeland

Seen Leeland live for the first time last Saturday, it was amazing! They are such an amazing live band.
They will be performing on the Flevo Festival (which I will be attending) this summer as well.
Talking about Flevo, it's gonna be mind blowing! Both The Listening and Anberlin will be performing as well!
Both are on the top of my list of favorite bands and I've been waiting for the last three years to see them perform! 
And while we are talking about favorite bands... my all time favorite Christian band, Switchfoot, will be performing three days from now... and guess who's gonna be there? 
Yes that's right, yours truly will be standing up front enjoying that loving music with all I have.
So if you happen to run into me on Friday,  I'll probably have no voice what so ever, be sore and dead tired.
But I will tell you, it was worth it and I would do again any time! 
As you can see, this summer is gonna be awesome! I love it already and it still has to happen!

I am loved

Steffie — Sun, 06 Jun 2010 20:45:19 +0000

Positive vibe is surrounding me lately. I feel like I’m bathing in light.

People around me are so supportive, loving and caring
My future shines bright again
The end of the tunnel is nearing
I’m almost out of the dark
And the sun shines on my face again

A little more, just a tiny bit more
Then I’ll be there
The things I’ve been fighting for
Hoping for
Wishing for
Praying for
Those are the things I’ve been given.

I feel loved, I am loved…

History

Steffie — Wed, 07 Apr 2010 19:53:09 +0000

Its been a bad day, you’ve been looking back
And all you can see is everything you wish you could take back
All your mistakes, a world of regrets
All of those moments you would rather forget
I know it’s hard to believe
Let me refresh your memory

Yesterday is history
And history is miles away
So leave it all behind you
Let it always remind you of the day
The day that love made history

You know you can’t stay right where you fell
The hardest part is forgiving yourself
But let’s take a walk into today
And don’t let your past get in the way

Would you believe that you are history in the making?
Every choice that you are making
Every step that you are taking
Every word that you are saying
Every prayer that you are praying
Every chain that you are breaking
History is in the making

Lyrics by Matthew West

Change is coming

Steffie — Thu, 01 Apr 2010 19:06:14 +0000

As some of you may know, a lot has been going on in my tiny little life lately. Things have been messy, dark and pretty chaotic.
I don’t really feel comfortable going into details too much in a public space like this, but if your curious, just message me! =)
But I’m doing better now. Things are finally starting to clear up in my head and I feel stronger than before.
I was always so insecure, about my looks and my weight. But now, I am just going to accept myself for who I am and take care of myself again.
Just because I’m overweight doesn’t mean I can’t dress up in pretty dresses and wear my hair the way I’ve always wanted it.
So today I took a huge step. I went to the hairdresser for a make-over!

They cut off around 10 cm from the bottom and around 15 cm (or a bit more) for the layers. I really wanted to go completely blonde again but the hairdresser said that’s very bad for your hair. So we’re gonna do it in stages. They just put a lot of highlights all through my hair and next time they are gonna do that again and slowly it will get lighter and lighter.

All for pictures were taken with my mom’s simple powershot camera and the colour doesn’t really come over the way I hoped. It’s a lot lighter and less golden than the picture shows in real life and the pictures are just snap shots, but ah well. You get the idea.

xoxox

Strawberry Birthday

Steffie — Thu, 25 Mar 2010 21:15:16 +0000

Yesterday I realized it’s only two weeks ’till my 21st birthday. Yikes! I haven’t even thought about what I want for my birthday.

I wasn’t even planning on celebrating my birthday this year so I’m keeping it really low key I guess.

Though I have to admit I will try to make a pretty cake myself this year. One without lactose so I can eat it as well. I just hope it goes better than the last time I tried to make a cake. It was one big mess. It turned into well… how shall I put this, a rock with chocolate and cream. It was flat and hard, really hard. I think you could smash a window with it.

This time I think I’m gonna do something easy. Just sponge cake, cream and strawberries, a lot of strawberries. And when all fails, I’ll make sure I have some chocolate muffins in the fridge to save the day!

Just found this picture on google, doesn’t it look delicious?

It’s your life

Steffie — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 19:54:33 +0000

I had a really good conversation with a close friend today. That conversation reminded me of this song. The lyrics fit perfectly to the situation she is currently in. But I think no matter what place you are in life now, it’s a good thing to remember the message this song gives.

This is the moment
It’s on the line
Which way you gonna fall?
In the middle between
Wrong and right
But you know after all

It’s your life
What you gonna do?
The world is watching you
Every day the choices you make
Say what you are and who
Your heart beats for
It’s an open door
It’s your life

Are you who you always said you would be?
With a sinking feeling in your chest
Always waiting for someone else to fix you
Tell me when did you forget

It’s your life
What you gonna do?
The world is watching you
Every day the choices you make
Say what you are and who
Your heart beats for
It’s an open door
It’s your life

To live the way that you believe
This is your opportunity
To let your life be one that lights the way

- Francesca Battistelli - It’s Your Life

Sometimes

Steffie — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 23:15:14 +0000

Sometimes it’s al right to just be alone
Sometimes it’s al right to just stay at home
Sometimes it’s ok if we lose our minds
Sometimes it’s the only way out of a fight

Maybe we’ll fall before we take flight
Maybe you’re all I’ve got to lose
They say it’s gray, but we see it white
And if I’m lost, thank God I’m lost with you

Sometimes there’s only so much we can take
By the time you arrived, we all needed a break
Sometimes it’s ok if we lose our minds
Sometimes it’s the only way out of a fight

It’s ok to fight back, it’s al right if you lose
It’s ok to give up, we’ll still love you if you do

Lyrics by Seabird.

Quote of the Day

Steffie — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 20:59:11 +0000

“And I do believe it’s true that there are roads left in both of our shoes,
But if the silence takes you then I hope it takes me too.
So brown eyes I hold you near,
’cause you’re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere.”
- Death Cab For Cutie – Soul Meets Body